August 19th, 2008 Posted in Uncategorized | 1 Comment »
I’ve been avoiding writing this last entry for days now since it, really, officially signifies the end of Bike & Build in my mind.
As for the final moment, imagine 31 riders (on 30 bikes…go tandem!) yelling and screaming for 2 miles along the coast of West Seattle, creating such a scene last Sunday afternoon, I’m sure, disrupting people’s quiet afternoon on the beach. And once we reached 61st street on Alki beech, the 30 of us screamed even louder but this time our patient family and friends joined us, welcoming us to our final destination. I spotted a bunch of balloons to which Brooke said, “Oh, those must be for me” but upon closer look, saw that it was my aunt, uncle and cousins cheering me on.
I hopped off the bike as soon as I saw them but quickly threw down my gear and hopped in the ocean when I saw (nearly) all riders jump in. The cold water heightened the overwhelming emotions of having completed this incredible journey, adding the bubbling headrush. All of us bobbed in the shallow water, leaping up and hugging one another, entirely elated. I felt an amazing sense of cohesion with the group at that moment and even in that wondrous moment, felt a slight sadness in realizing that this moment meant the end of it all.
I really enjoyed the build day we had on the following day with Rebuilding Together. But when it was completed, I had a sense of unease because although everything in the past few days fell in to the typical pattern of bike, arrive at host site, eat dinner, sleep, wake up, and build, I knew that we weren’t hopping on our bikes the next day per usual.
That night I packed my bikebox, carefully disassembling the parts, adding cushioning and continuously rearranging its contents to prevent damage. The whole process was pretty frustrating since it was such a tight squeeze and just furthered my anxiety of the end of everything. Luckily, Shira was there to watch me pack and make suggestions which helped calm me down.
My goodbyes to everyone were scattered, catching people as they milled around the church taking care of last minute details and felt entirely inadequate. Hard to really express how important everyone in the group was to my experience and in shaping the incredible group dynamic that was P2S08. I truly will miss all 30 of them and am sad that all of us will never be together again.
The entire Bike & Build experience has had a profound impact on my life, much of which I am still reflecting and learning from. Only when I start to encounter new experiences will I truly be able to gage its effect. At least one major takeaway was the heightened desire to seek out adventure and explore my surroundings on a daily basis. Regardless of our surroundings, there was always something to enjoy- natural scenery (ranging from beautiful mountains to windy plains), a local general store, lakes and streams and all the random eateries in between. In this sense, I know I’ll find ways to rediscover my surroundings and find new things to explore and appreciate…ensuring that there never will become overly settled and bored with my environment. Keep on exploring.
Although this is a final post for Bike & Build, I think I’ll continue to occasionally blog about my future cycling and running pursuits as well as insert more photos and fill in some gaps from Bike & Build. So, for sure, this isn’t goodbye.